love stickers

my left knee's been swollen since last friday for no apparent reason
been referred to 6 different doctors over 3 visits to the hospital and extracted about 13 bottles of fluid from my knee for lab tests, xray and now scheduled for an mri

docs say there is inflammation in my knee but are not sure why yet (thus the mri)
i have to walk slowly to minimize the pain

each day when my nephew comes home from kindergarten, he'll suddenly quieten down and ask me "xiao gu, is your knee ok now?" i ought to record it on my handphone tomorrow if he asks again.. it's so lovely to hear him say that. he's just 3 yrs old! and a usually boisterous one too, its endearing how he returns from school each day, shouting and waving goodbye to the neighbour at the door and then abruptly stop as he turns around to see me in the living room, he immediately changes his tone and asks, almost carefully, in a soft concerned voice, about my knee:)

well, today he did something else.. when i answered that it's better now, but it's still swollen and painful - he said "i know, you need plaster, wait a while, i'll get plaster for you ok?" and he ran very quickly into the room to get plaster, with his socks still on..

and then he "stuck" the plaster on my knee (on the needle wound) with the sticky bit facing up.. (i laughed and turned it right side up) and ran off to play xbox..
my 3 yr old niece followed suit and stuck another plaster on my knee while i wasn't looking.. it's so sweet of them to put plasters on my swollen knee.. :)

singing phobia

i have overcome my singing phobia! Thank God :)

haven't been able to sing in the presence of others (including good friends) since young. when i had to sing with my class during music period at school, i sang so softly, it might have been just lip synch on my part.

i remember 2 traumatising singing incidents at school - once in primary sch and once in sec sch. on both occasions i had to sing solo while the rest of the class listened.. i was so traumatised i don't even know how it went.

when i start going to church last year, i wanted so much to worship God but didn't know how to sing worship songs and was terrified of singing in public.. Thank God for giving me courage to sign up for singing classes coz in singing class, we have to sing in front of classmates while being scrutinized by the teacher (for good reasons). I also bought worship cds to listen to and singalong.

just today, i went for my first mandarin singing comp audition!!
it was unbelievable.. (for me) that i really did it & my knees weren't wobbly!

i didn't manage to find nor download the accompany music for the songs i wanted to sing.. and felt so inadequate at performing the songs that i wanted to back out. the audition time for me was 2pm, i was still mulling over it till 2.35 when i decided to call the school to see if they'd still let me go.. while i was put on hold to check, i was still uncertain if i should go and thought if i was allowed to go despite the time, i'll go! and so i went.. Thank God for the keyboard (oops i forgot to turn off the power..) in the waiting room, playing with it took my mind off my nerves. my heartrate was highest at the moment just before entering the audition room, and my hands at their coldest as well.

but i did it!! another of my to-do's in a lifetime thingy
Yippee!