forgiveness

hmmmm it is sometimes possible to let unforgiveness creep in unconsciously..

woke up late yesterday morn at 730am.. the time when prayer meeting starts!!
i had lost my handphone which i used as an alarm, and had used another radio alarm which didn't go off due to some reason..
i felt so awful, i forgot to thank God for waking me up in time for urbankidz and focused only on the accusations from the enemy that i was LATE :(

dorothy came to me several times and asked me how i was that morning.. each time i replied ok..good.. but it just didn't feel right..

i didn't even notice anything wrong till zach came to me and asked what was wrong with me today..? why was i different from other days? thank God for sending zach to remind me.. that set me thinking and i realized i had let my waking up late affect my mood.. later that day, i asked God for forgiveness and He said it's ok.. and tears just flowed.. overwhelmed by His grace and love again.. that was when serena saw Holy Spirit raining down on us, and monica saw rays of blue light shining through white clouds which covered us from black clouds..

Thank You Lord! Praise You Lord!!

Father i pray for sensitivity, openness and honesty in the depths of my heart and greater self awareness of the state of my heart. please help me to be sensitive to You and spend every moment with You. in Jesus' precious name. Amen

"Who am I that
You are mindful of me
That You hear me
When I call
Is it true that
You are thinking of me
How You love me
It's amazing"
Extract from Friend of God lyrics



worship songs from last weekend :)



Here in Your Presence lyrics
"Found in Your hands, fullness of joy
Every fear suddenly wiped away here in Your presence
All of my gains now fade away
Every crown no longer on display, here in Your presence
Heaven is trembling in awe of Your wonders
The kings and their kingdom arestanding amazed
Here in Your presence, we are undone Here in Your presence, Heaven and Earth become one Here in Your presence, all things are new Here in Your presence, everything bows before You
Wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way"

Thank You Lord

for..
- wonderful testimonies at urbankidz
- accomplishing so much at work with so little time
- managing seemingly impossible back to back dance rehearsals
- getting costumes and accessories for dance comp with ease despite last minute shopping
- unity and teamwork
- support and encouragement
- dedicated, gifted, and God-loving guitar teachers and coursemates
- prayers
- worship
- Your words
- Your love
- khon kaen
- love, warmth and Your Holy Spirit
- healing testimonies
- fellowship
- bday parties, company party
- prizes and gifts
- yummy food
- waking me up
- Your peace love and joy!

princess

haven't spent time with my nieces and nephew for almost 2 weeks, missed them much, was wondering how they've been, whether they'd still be close to me..
well, last night i finally got to meet them, and the first words they said to me was "hello princess!" :)

i couldn't play with them for long, and when i left for guitar practice, the eldest was making a gift for me..
she said i could open it when i get home later
i waited till the next morning so i could open it with her..
and she presented it to me with such big smiles!! :)

this is the gift she made me..

and she wrapped it so beautifully in a gift box!

that's love..
Praise You Lord! Thank You Lord for such love!

God loves me!

my fren's brother came up to me & asked to pray for me last Sunday after service
he was in tears as he told me how God loved me and how precious i was to Him and much much more, it was a long prayer and we both ended up in tears..

deeply touched that i mattered so much to God, and deeply touched by how attuned and obedient this brother was (he was actually rushing off for reservist but had came down from the balcony seats looking for me, just to pray for me!) he said he started tearing when he saw me from the back (not knowing it was me) and felt God saying those things to him.. it felt like God was the one speaking to me and holding my hands and embracing me as he prayed for me..

this is the 2nd time someone has told me (with tears streaming) that God told them to tell me that He loves me very much.. both times at the back of the audi..

Thank You Lord! I love You!!

birthday blessings

woke up on my birthday to this wonderful surprise from tin, our live-in homemaker from myanmar.. she's been with us for just a few months.. she calls me sister :) it superwarmed my heart when i found the bright and jolly card thoughtfully hidden underneath the usual breakfast sandwich that she prepares for me daily:)

that started my day wth such warmth and joy, thank you Jesus!

later that morn, mom shared that my pre-school niece had been wondering aloud as to what she shld get for my bday, well, knowing that she had actually thought about getting me a gift, has already blessed my heart so.. as we were on the way to lunch, she decided that it'd be the beautiful painting that she had painted at an art competition..


i love it.. thank you God for this gift you've given to her, i pray that You let her use it to bless many many more people in her life

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me and my nephew shares the same bday!
he's gotten an electric guitar for his bday!!
God bless him and teach him new songs and worship that pleases God's heart
love to watch and hear him twang :)


we had a lovely bday lunch together rite after his bday celebration at kindergarten
and here's my nieces singing me d bday song! how beautiful!!


that evening was ministry cell and each one was to find 5 other people to do prophesy with. was deeply touched and much blessed by God's words..
.. first person who paired up with me received a picture of my feet in mud and dirt with the words "beautiful are the feet of those who share the gospel", and also had a vision of me dancing and worshipping!! both me and my first partner needed tissues when we were done.. :)
.. the following 4 messages were also spot on and had me deeply moved

was amazed how my bday blessings spilled over to the next day.. at guitar class, the teacher blessed me with a guitar strap that had Psalms 40:1-2 engraved on it!

he just decided to bring it along, thinking of giving it to whoever testified that morn, and it just happened to be me, who for the first time in guitar class who had daringly volunteered to testify God's goodness with a song that God had blessed me with.

the verse spoke to me and i couldn't help but burst into tears as he read it to the class, and i was awed and speechless when he turned and handed it to me after he finished reading the verse.. thank you Lord!! i'm so blessed. and i only realized that he had it especially engraved, a long time ago, when i had went up to thank him later, and share how i'm blessed by the verse.. which God had just told me the night before.. through the other prophecies i'd received..

God keeps affirming that He's my Savior, my Healer, my Redeemer, my Rock, my All, my Everything!! that i am saved and safe in His arms for always. i love You Lord!!

faithfulness

received this word twice from God - once during soaking at transformational worship arts when i asked God what he liked abt me, and once during prophetic circle at cell group.. a brother said God is pleased with my faithfulness to Him. didn’t know what “faithfulness” meant exactly then, but was just happy that God liked something abt me, and that faithfulness is something approved by God.

well last tuesday, i learnt what faithfulness is! from attending bible study with pastor michael on the epistle of James 4&5 titled Faith and the world

faithfulness that God is pleased with would be faithfulness to Him and not to the world. For those who are married to Christ cannot be a friend to the world, that would make one a enemy of Christ..

and the world in this sense doesn’t refer to physical things like money, niteclubs, cinemas or ktv, but it is the invisible spirit of the world, where satan seeks to destroy faith, hope and love. it is a system and invisible environment which is opposed to God. we must use God’s word and truth to guard against the spirit of the world. 1John 4 do not believe every spirit. we must test the spirit by asking whether they confess that Jesus has come in the flesh to deliver us form sin and give us eternal life. James 4:1-2 murder is not physical, but refers to resorting to anything to get what you want, stemming from selfish desires. it could be hurting others through oppression, and killing them spiritually. Galatians 5:19-21 teaches abt fruits of the flesh - fornication, adultery, jealousy, outbursts of anger, sorcery, and fruits of the Holy Spirit, when we abide in God and He in us.

we were dead but have come alive because of Jesus. our old selves have been crucified with Jesus and we have risen up with Jesus and brought into the light from the darkness, and we should shine for Him and set ourselves apart from the world, we must be different, and not be afraid to be different, no matter what people may think, die to ourselves and do whatever God wants us to do. this is not something that i find easy to do, nor do well at, (i struggle quite often in trying to do things that God wants me to do, out of fear of what people might think or feel) but i just keep trying, and God is so encouraging, that He sees my little efforts as pleasing to Him.. :~>

being faithful to Christ, means everything else doesn’t matter, only God matters, and what God wants matters, not what we want. For God is good, and knows best and whatever He gives us would be the best for us, for He has our best interest at heart, so do not complain on our hearts when we see “lack” in things that we have or do not have, for we have no lack! we have all we need in God, all we need is God, and we have the best when we receive whatever God gives us

that means i shouldn’t think about wanting anything because God knows my needs better than me, i should be just happy that i have what suits me best right now, that is focus in loving God!! thank you Lord :)

faithfulness is to present ourselves as an instrument for righteousness. be dead to sin and be alive in Christ. give ourselves to God. who we present ourselves as slave to - to sin which leads to death or obedience which leads to righteousness? die daily and present ourselves to God daily. do not conform to the world, do not let the world squeeze ourselves into its mold, its system and its thoughts but be transformed by our mind when we abide in God and Him in us. the world here refers to ungodly thought patterns, which is emnity to God. it doesn’t refer to the things we do (watching movies, singing ktv), but the spirit abt it.

i think when God says “abide in My love” - it is more than being loved by God, soaking in His love,enjoying His love, but knowing the things God love, knowing His heart and acting on it, and doing His will!

God yearns for us to be faithful to Him and His heart breaks when we sin. Humble ourselves and let God rule. it shouldn’t matter that people hate you, it only matters what God thinks.

knowing now what faithfulness means, i’m just wowed that God that He is pleased with my efforts in learning and trying to be faithful.. WOW GOD thank You for this faithfulness from You to be faithful to You and only You!!

Lord, please help me t be an obedient child, who will be sensitive to your softest sigh and quick to follow Your way and do Your will. Amen