what i learnt through a trial

something strange happened yesterday morn

it happened just before daybreak, i'd been sleeping for almost 24 hours since the evening before, the first that i've fallen into such a deep sleep, probably deadbeat from going after after a kid who was running all over the place and also sick from flu of sorts

i felt and saw huge strong hands pressing against my ears while i was technically asleep. i couldn't move, couldn't make any audible noise, knew something was not right, and tried to move away, the hands pressed harder when i moved away, and it hurt slightly, when i tried to make the hand go away, but another hand (coz the 2 hands were still on my ears) did funny things on my tummy. i panicked but couldn't make a sound, couldn't get up, nor wake up, i could see the room, but knew i was in sleep mode

it then dawned on me to call out to Jesus (how could i have waited so long to?!!) so i did and the thing went away instantly.. whatever it was, Jesus is always with us, and ready to come to our rescue, if only we'd look to Him! i came to, and put my hands in the air and praised God! and gave my heart to Jesus again

i learnt that in trials, we must look to God first of all, and not as a last resort, not to try to overcome things with our own might but to rely on Jesus in all situations, that i must always look to Him first.

i've never experienced this before, but know that i have nothing to fear, because JESUS ruLeZ and our victory is in Him,

that same morning as i came to and waited upon God, i realized i'd been healed of my terribly sore throat and sickness. Hallelujah!
Jesus rUleZ.. Jesus rUleZ.. Jesus rUleZ

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i asked God to forgive me for not totally relying on Him, for not instinctively looking to Him, and to search my heart and set my heart right before Him, coz i dun wanna allow this to happen again, i wanna close all doors to things that are not from God and allow only God to rule my heart.

felt a breakthrough as i obeyed God and did what i sensed He wanted me to do - ask for forgiveness, He showed me this fear of man and invisible wall that i've built around myself, and as a result i've said and done things, and/or not said nor done things (eg avoiding, running away, resisting), whether consciously or otherwise, this is not right, and not what He wants, He wants an open loving giving heart, not just to Him but to all whom He love.. and He handheld me and freed me!! the act of asking for forgiveness and prayer does wonders. Thank You Lord my life is Yours.